Hope you’re doing OK. I heard you’re quiet with the whole thing. That’s cool. Just don’t keep everything inside. It’s going to be hard but try to open up to a friend. In that way, at least, you have someone there with you when you think you’re alone.

I feel so helpless. I wish I can do something. I wish I had control of the situation. But I guess this is what it’s all about – the helplessness, the lack of control – that when you jump into nothingness, you just hope that there’s someone there to catch you.

I stop myself. I am not afraid now.