You should have made the jump. I know it’s not much and that it merits a lot of work, but it is through these opportunities where they give you a chance to shine. And after a long time of waiting to finally move on and probably be what you should have been, you turn it down.
We all have to take risks sometimes for things to happen. We all have to muster up all our courage and jump into the abyss. It’s scary, yes, but don’t fail to see how exciting it is at the same time. You will make mistakes, but it is through these that you will learn new things and expand your horizons. Believe me, there’s more to it then working day in and day out in your tangerine kingdom.
You have a lot of potential. Don’t let it go to waste.